Thursday, May 10, 2007

And so I Enter... and "See"


I've spent this weekend reminiscing, going over all things past, and ideas for the future, a sort of indexing of my thoughts. I've recently noticed a new ability, since my awakening, and for this reason, I have placed myself in isolation for this long. For a month and a half now, I had placed myself in isolation due to these "strange" symptoms being experienced. I have recently, as of the 26th of December, on the Full moon, come out of isolation to join the outside world again. And boy am I back! Awakened. Alive, it seems for the first time... almost re-born, into a being I did not know could exist. As the days go by, I discover new things about myself. Suddenly, all of the things, event, tragedies, losses, gains, and experiences in my life, no matter how good, or bad, seem to al make sense. It's like it ALL makes sense. Like the life I lived before was "training" for the destiny that awaited me. My destiny, as yet to be revealed to me, is unraveling to me as everyday goes by... but these abilities, these gifts, keep coming, and at first was overwhelming, and now, after this weekend, I think I am ready to embrace...You see... I have not really confessed to all of gifts I have been bestowed, thus far. For those who understand, this will hopefully serve as a guide... to those who don't... It seems like science fiction.The following is a list of my abilities thus far, in order of manifestation:EMPATHY: Some would claim telepathy, but I seem to be able to "feel" what others are feeling, not so much "hear" their thoughts. I also have the ability to transfer the same to others. This is what I refer to "calling" people mentally. Sometimes just inadvertedly "thinking" of someone, "calls" that person, or prompts them to think of me, or "answer" my call. (literally calling me on the phone)AURA READING: I can see people's aura. Energy surrounding them. Guides beside them, in the form of energy and colors.ENERGY HANDLING: Although all my life my hands have been freezing cold, suddenly now my hands are warm! On my left hand I have 2 "clear" 5 point stars, formed from the lines on everyone's hands (see more in my past journal entries for this). Through my hands, somehow I am able to manifest this energy, and I "see" this represented in spheres. (Someone else has seen and "felt" this energy... She knows who she is) It seems that through this energy, I am able to "Heal". I have come to the conclusion that sickness is manifested by the in-balance of one's energies, and through my handling abilities, I can put these back in place. (except for myself, I can't seem to shake this cold!). I have however, noticed a backdraw that I am learning how to control. That through "Healing" I somehow either "absorb" or "give-up" some of my energy. It depends on the severity, what the symptoms manifest themselves as. I still need to study this ability.IDENTITY RECOGNITION: I have recently discovered the ability to "see" who people really are. Most people are "blank", meaning they are programed to live every day life, and go about their day-to-day business. But there are some, such as myself, that are "awake". There are different levels I have discovered. Those who chose to acknowledge to be aware. Those who are in the "making" or "training" and don't know it yet. Those who are "Fully Awake", such as myself. And those who are not from here. By this I mean, those who have been taken over by another entity, other than that originally born into it. I can "see" them. But now, they also "see" me.THE POWER OF WILL: Also recently, I have discovered that things manifest themselves, even in a minute way, when I will them with conviction. This can be in mere conversation, or in a more powerful form, when casting a spell. This I have found is more powerful, around a week before and after the full moon.DREAMS: Although I have probably Astrally projected before, without knowing, I think I have more control over this ability as of recently. I also have been experiencing terrible cases of De'Ja'Vu, which leads me to believe that, this in fact, might be clairvoyance. I'm not sure yet.Everyday I discover something new... and I know I probably missed something so far, but I will keep updating as this novel unravels. Something huge is about to happen, I "feel" it. This is the only reason I am revealing this. Because I would like to surround myself with others that are "alike" or have "potential", that I can help develop, so that together we can be strong, and stand on top.I am protected by the powers that be. This being the reason I am not afraid in revealing these truths. Something that others would be. However I am not. I fear nothing. I know my destiny.DO YOU?